Before, Becoming

by Nancy Huggett

My daughter was a past tense,

was a feather—falling, fallen—

a hollowed barb of crimson

cardinaling the sky.

 

She was once the colour blue,

scudding clouds and clear,

so clear—stretching

past horizons that I pinned

 

to her like mittens to a coat

to keep them close. My daughter

was a pod of milkweed

bursting into autumn—

 

freckle seeds on tufts of silk

that twirled like spiders

in the breeze. She was

a burr that clung, a clothespin

 

holding me together,

a fumbling in the dark

at the edge of what might

be. My daughter was

 

a dancer, was an actor,

a champagne flute of laughter,

a tuba—round and blasting

filled with breath and brassy

 

shining. My daughter was

a past tense, is a presence

conjugating, a chorus of cicadas

setting fire to the wind. Sometimes

 

a truther, or a teller,

or a thistle wand of wishes,

she’s the callus on a tree trunk

oozing sap to seal the wound.

About the Author

Nancy Huggett writes, lives, and caregives on the unceded Territory of the Anishinaabe Algonquin Nation (Ottawa, Canada). She’s won some awards (2024 RBC-PEN Canada New Voices Award) and a gazillion rejections. You find some of her work in Event, The Ex-Puritan, Literary Mama, One Art, Passages North, Poetry Northwest, and SWWIM. Her first poetry collection—Maybe, Cicadas—focuses on caregiving and is forthcoming from University of Alberta Press, spring 2027.