Before, Becoming
by Nancy Huggett
My daughter was a past tense,
was a feather—falling, fallen—
a hollowed barb of crimson
cardinaling the sky.
She was once the colour blue,
scudding clouds and clear,
so clear—stretching
past horizons that I pinned
to her like mittens to a coat
to keep them close. My daughter
was a pod of milkweed
bursting into autumn—
freckle seeds on tufts of silk
that twirled like spiders
in the breeze. She was
a burr that clung, a clothespin
holding me together,
a fumbling in the dark
at the edge of what might
be. My daughter was
a dancer, was an actor,
a champagne flute of laughter,
a tuba—round and blasting
filled with breath and brassy
shining. My daughter was
a past tense, is a presence
conjugating, a chorus of cicadas
setting fire to the wind. Sometimes
a truther, or a teller,
or a thistle wand of wishes,
she’s the callus on a tree trunk
oozing sap to seal the wound.
About the Author
Nancy Huggett writes, lives, and caregives on the unceded Territory of the Anishinaabe Algonquin Nation (Ottawa, Canada). She’s won some awards (2024 RBC-PEN Canada New Voices Award) and a gazillion rejections. You find some of her work in Event, The Ex-Puritan, Literary Mama, One Art, Passages North, Poetry Northwest, and SWWIM. Her first poetry collection—Maybe, Cicadas—focuses on caregiving and is forthcoming from University of Alberta Press, spring 2027.